my day

It was so nice to talk to you baby. i love when we get to skype for a long time. it feels like we're actually hanging out together. it makes me want to be with you soo bad though. but your room mates seem really nice and really cool. i'm happy you guys get a long. it reassures me a little that everything is good, and you're around good people. but anyway it really made my day to talk to you. and it made it feel like things will get easier. and i hope you like mimi's nick name. i like it. ruby... it sounds pretty just like you.

and after we talked i just sorta chilled around the house for a bit. i ate some salad, which was good and watched some tv. neither dan or chris ended up being able to do anything though. so i texted jessie and we played video games for a little. and then evan texted me saying he wanted to get some taco bell. so we got some food, i got the 2 dollar meal. trying not to spend any money. and then we came back to albany, which was kind of pointless, because he didn't want to do anything once we got here and he's got work from 11 to 4 tomorrow/ today for you. so it was kind of annoying, but it gives me something to do i guess. we tried working on some music a little, but we never get anywhere. but i did get more inspiration, and want to work on new songs. i have such good ideas, they're just so hard to execute.  but then everyone went to sleep. and i'm just chilling now in the living room now. i did 100 push ups and 100 sit ups though and heard some good music on the mtv u channel. but i don't have any plans for tomorrow either, just to work on music and art. one of the things that gets to me, is just seeing how amazing your days are, and how boring mine are. it kind of sucks. makes me feel like a loser almost. i know i shouldn't be comparing, but sometimes i get scared you'll come back from such a beautiful country, where there's something to do every single day, and something to see, and come back home and it just won't be able to compare to italy. but i know that isn't the case. just dumb worries. but tomorrow is the first day of a NEW YEAR! a lot of symbol in that huh? i'll continue to pursue my dreams and try to figure out money and jobs. don't give up on me coming to italy just yet. ok baby? its not impossible and i really hope i can do it. i love you baby
good luck tomorrow. i know services are gonna be a little extended for the holiday and its gonna be kind of annoying with the  extended repetition of the Amidah prayer for both Shacharit and the longest Mussaf of any holiday and all that. but shana tova or should i say shana tova umetukah, for a good sweet year. haha. save me some honey and apples.
love you.