excited for our date

hey baby. i wish all of this could be easier. but the past couple of times we've talked have been so frustrating i've ended up being sadder when we were done talking. i just want to be able to hear about your day and tell you about mine. or else things become so far in the past, that you're reading about what i did two days ago. and you always want me to do my own thing instead of wondering when you're gonna call. but its a lot harder than you think. if i just went out, we'd never be able to talk because of the time difference. i would go to chris's and probably not come back til 10, which would be 4 in the morning for you. and i want to make sure we at least get to talk. i still want you to be able to do your own thing, but i don't get why it would be a problem to talk before you go out. i just want time to move a little faster. i will always love you. and i understand its not so easy for you, so i'm always trying to keep that in mind. just as long as you keep in mind what its like for me on this side. where i'm not going out with a bunch of friends every single night, and i don't have plans do go on cruises or see amazing pieces of art. and i don't want to fight or make you feel bad, i just want you to know this isn't easy. for either of us. just enjoy italy with out stressing out. i love you and miss you baby.