midnight skater

hey ruby!
i meant to tell you that i loved how you wrote that earlier.  it was nice talking to you today. your roomates are really cool and it felt like we were all hanging out. its gonna be cool next semester when might see each other on campus. and thanks for your support and hers for my hip hop. its hard for me to find people who enjoy hip hop or care about me being able to rap. so it really meant a lot. so after i talked to you me and evan went to the muddy cup. we got there a little before 730, which is sign up time, and there was like no one there. last time me and evan did open mic it was extremely crowded. i guess they switched the people who usually do it. but we met some other kid there who was performing there too, and he said a lot of people sign up online now and they come in later or some shit. he was pretty cool. so i finally signed up, and there still wasn't too many people there. and i ended up going first. its always weird, cuz my body is nervous, like my legs shake and stuff. but i don't feel nervous. i just went and performed. i hooked the computer up and remembered every word. and felt good being at the mic again. its always kinda hard when you aren't in control of the sound and stuff. but all in all i think i did a good job. people clapped and i heard one girl say it was really catchy. but no one came up to me or anything. i was hoping it'd be just like last time when people asked me how long i've been writing and stuff. but i'm glad i did it and didn't back out. after i went, evan kept saying he really wish he had done it and said he was gonna do it next week. so it was cool to think i did it on my own with out evan or anyone. my idea was to try to do it like every week or every other week, that way i would be forced to write a new song every week. so we'll see. evan didn't record it, but he took pictures so i'll put them up when i can. but i do wish you were there. and then after that i was fucking starving so we went over to burger king and i got some food. and then we came back to empire, where everyone was watching football so that was pretty boring for me. but everyone keeps on betting on games and shit. and evan of course made 20 bucks tonight. i always wish i could make some quick cash like that, but i know i better now test my luck. but it was kind of bored so i decided to go out and skate. so i went by my self all around campus. skating is really freeing. especially on my new board. and when its night time and cool out. its almost like a stress reliever. it was pretty dark so it was kind of dangerous and it was only a matter of time until i fell. so after like 20 minutes i went down a path i've never been on. it was just a straight road, but there was no lights on. an other dragon's eye moment, when i was riding at that very time, i remembered about kerri and i was thinking about if i fell right now what would i do. and literally right then i hit a pot hole and my board stopped completely and i went flying forward and rolled. i'm fine, but it was kind of scary. i just got up and shook it off though and kept on riding. on the ride, i started to think of some lyrics so i got excited to come back and work on some music. and i'm really tired too. i kind of just wanna go to sleep early and head back home. i miss you so much baby. sorry its hard for me to think about trips you might go on. but it just reminds me of when you went to israel for 10 days. those 10 days felt like forever. so on top of you already being gone, it just feels like you're leaving again. and thinking about not being able to talk to you. i just feel like i'm not going to be able to do it. i just wish i could do these super amazing things with you. it kind of makes me feel like shit that i can't. you know? its just hard to feel like i can do something for you thats still gonna be breath taking. but i guess i'll have to think of something right? can't wait to talk to you again. love you baby. good night/ good morning. kiss kiss.