hi baby

even writing to you feels good. i'm really happy to hear you had a good day. i love the pictures you put up. i'm really jealous i couldn't be there. especially for the bike ride. you know how much i love riding bikes with you. i can't wait to see more pictures. its always really nice to see you and talk to you. especially with some of the things you were saying to me this time. ; ) but after we were done talking, me and evan went over to chris's house, but only for like an hour if that. i was really tired and just sort of wanted to go home. i almost fell asleep at like 10, but i don't know why i'm like this but i forced my self to stay up. its actualy almost 5 in the morning here, so you probably already caught your train. but anyway when i got home, it felt nice to be back. i still felt a little sad but i just watched some tv and went online for a while. it was nice to see my mom and the kids and julius. nolly was still at work, and of course his car broke down again. he's really stressed out, and everyone just keeps saying how much money they need. it sucks. keep praying for a miracle you know? at one point i was in the kitchen and i heard a girl come in, and julius was like oh he's right in the kitchen (because he thought i was nolly) but for a split second, i thought it was you who came in and you were looking for me and my heart jumped. but it turned out to be dave's girlfriend who was just waiting for dave to get out of work. and he eventually came over to, and brought me his old wheels. so now my board looks really cool cuz it has big red wheels. it kind of looks like a watermelon now, nolly pointed out. but it rides really nice. but while i was putting the wheels on, dave and his girlfriend were all over each other. she was on top of him right next to me. reminded me of the people you saw on the bus. so it sucked seeing all that because of course it made me miss you. but also when i went to let charlie out, it was cold outside and so the air was so crisp. there was leaves all over the ground and it smelled so much like fall. which i like, but at the same time it kind of makes me sad for some reason. apple picking has been brought up a couple times already, and i wish you could be here for that. sorry i'm writing so much btw. but i forgot to tell you that, the same night jackie called me crying about her mom and what not, it was late and dark out. and me and nolly heard this weird sound coming from the path. it was just like this yellping. over and over. and it was just echoing through the night sky. it was really creepy. so me and nolly skated over there, and it got louder and louder til we were right in front of the path. and it was pitch black, and we only had one little flash light. which just made it creepier with a little light moving around making shadows crawls and shit. so it sounded like it was right in front of us. and as soon as we took a step in the path, the sound just stopped completely. it was real weird. and we never knew what it was. but my moms was just telling me that some of the neighbors saw coyotes near the path! scary shit. so the kids get driven over from their friends house when its late out. but nolly was pretty stressed and we actually ended up talking and stuff tonight. we skated over to price chopper, despite the possible rabid coyote. and i saw chris's little brother there too actually. that was cool. and me and nolly bought some soda and ice tea mix and crackers. and i ended up just splitting all of it cuz i felt bad since he was having money problems and he pays my phone bill. and i guess once you turn 22, you don't get the 300 dollars a month from my dad. of courseeeeeeee. so shits been rough. we bought a scratch off to try our luck. but nothing. and we talked the whole time we skated. and then we ate dinner together. it was good. and then i just chilled here for a little. but i ended up reading through all our skypes when i was finally releasing something...and i found all these old jokes that we used to say and stuff. it was nice. shekissyou? im a guuerrrillllaaaaa. and the other day when i was going through old photos, you had an album called little lawn mowers. remember when i used to pretend to be a little lawn mower? those were funny things. i love you soo much baby. and i started a drawing of you that i'm going to water color it soon. but call me whenever you can. i hope you have a lot of fun. miss you babe.